Days have lighten up fools .

Today is quite an odd day .
Its the first time I feel slightly guilty within these 2 weeks of great news all the time . I feel guilty cause of rejection . Its hard for me just to say no . I can't say no , cause Im afraid it may hurt someone . And me saying no , cause me twice the charm ,

1. Was scolded as usual .
2. Wasted my time .
I mean , I wanna join all these musician life bands and so on . Its a yes yes ! But its kinda hard keeping up with both . So I kinda say yes to most of them eventhough I now it will trouble me later on . I know that I wouldnt have enough to keep up with all of those jamming sessions and so on . Which brings me the only time for me to go jamming is early of the year or even once or twice in a month . There are those I know that I can do in music life . As in , jamming with Hanif , composing my own songs and playing guitar/drums at free times . But I don't think so I have enough time for those performing bands . Gaaah , can someone teach me to say no despite spelling it ? Its really hard for me .
Anddd , a friend of mine came . Who Im not really cloze with . So , as she came with her mum , I had to treat her well , eventhough im kinda bad at treating people . So , I escort her watching Penelope (5th time watching for me ) . It was suppose to be my studying time . I wanted to study , but I was confused either I should treat her well or just say no . She's a junior in my school , basicly , she's a guest and a junior . That makes me have to treat her 2 times nice . Huhu .
So , if you think you're an expert on saying no , please do teach me .

Just like a rat who justs deny that they are ment to be underground , just like an angel who indeed needs a guardian .